Finding Inspiration

     My inspiration often comes from my brothers and sisters, or sometimes random things I see. :D The different things that could require inspiration could be an on going never ending list. And for each one of them one of my siblings could help the design, create, change, or help anything in any way. If I don't get all my ideas from them something random that probably can't be traced back to it was the origin. My brothers and sisters are the best inspiration, and the next are the random things I see or hear.

     My brothers can come up with some crazy and fun stuff. One will say something and another will come back with something we all think is from a movie, but it's not. They are so smart and creative. The comebacks and responses to odd things they come up with are just amazing. Each one of them are so different, but the things they come up with can work so well together. A few days...weeks...months ago my little brother said something back to my big brother and no one knew what to say. We all wanted to know what movie he heard the line on. Then he told us that he didn't hear it on a movie. It was an original. And my older brother does some very cool stuff with computers and my mom told me he has some very well done cartoons hidden somewhere. Then my younger brother is so sweet. He thinks of you in such touching ways. He does a lot of stuff with wood. He made me a shelf once. :) All of them are uniquely creative and good hearted.

     My sisters effect me in different ways. The older sisters are roll models and examples. Examples both of what to do and what not to do. The younger, little, and baby sisters have different impacts as well. The younger sister spends more time talking and I have grown to respect her opinion on things. The little sister talks so much I know she will answer if I ask, and I can expect an honest one. The baby sister uses the love language of service. She always asks if there is something she can do to help. She, like any person, doesn't like to be taken advantage of, but when help is needed she is right there with both helping hands. My oldest sister encourages me like a you would want an older sister to. She is often if not always kind when you need someone to talk to or help. She will give you honest opinions and answers, but will do so as kindly as possible to human. My big sister is the sister who encourages new things. Things both with her and on my own. There has been plenty of things I did because she urged me. My sisters all young and beautiful are special. <3

     The random things...there isn't much to say. They are random and can pop up any where. They just can't be kept track of.

      My brothers and sisters are the best inspiration, and the next are the random things I see or hear. It comes from near and far.The inspiration is every where. My family is the best!!! :D <3

I think I need to work on making these shorter.....I don't want to go back and read them they are so long.

Lift Your Eyes to Our Father Above!!!

In your times of trial lift your eyes to the Father above. He alone is the answer. The source of peace and love. 

I  have had lots of trouble recently. I wait and wait for them to settle down but they never do. God gives me these trials to help  me grow stronger. He wants me to trust him and become closer to him. He uses the hard things in my life to do this. I, as a sinner, try to do it my self and ask God to take it away. I want to think and believe that I will do better and be happier with out it. But God knows me better. He knows that I have a desire to move spiritually. He sees that I don't want to be bored. I have the trials, He puts me in, to change me into what he wants me to be.  

I am always in his hands or on the pottery wheel. He will always work on me to make me what he wants me to be. When I mess it up, unlike me as a potter, He doesn't lose control of his anger.

 With clay it doesn't work to lose is and get angry. Working slow and being patent is what must be done. If you work to fast it ends up lopsided and odd. It becomes to thick in one area and way to thin in another. Some times He has to add things or take things away.The things he has to add can be familiar or very foreign. Things that don't match up with the rest of it.  The way it comes out will be totally different from any thing else that is, has been, or ever will be. 

God is not like any potter. He is wise and patent. He will work on you as long as needed. This is a life long mission. One that He is willing to do. Soften your heart and become clay that is willing to let him work. One way or another is will happen. Some times he might just have to stop and tear it all apart and start over. It is only because he wants you to be the best piece you can be. 

I have struggled a lot this last year with the change in school. He has completely tore me apart and started over. Nothing is the same and never will be again. I have had to put a this much trust in Him. He has gotten me through days I thought were going to be impossible. Praying is the only way I got through others, just knowing He was there and asking for His peace. I have had to submit my life. One thing I had never understood was giving my life to God. I had been told sure. I thought I had. But when it came time to be tested I was not ready. I failed and found one reason why it was good for me to go to a real school. 

I was shown more of the world and what it is turning into. It is a different kind of understanding to see than it is to just hear. It is nicer to hear but easier to really truly understand if seen. 

I am very thankful for the friends God had provided. So many people encouraged me to keep going and trust God. They all knew that God knew what he was doing when He put me there. I thank both friends made before and during school. You all had a part in this last year of my life. In fact I think it has made more of an impact on me this last year than ever before. Thanks to you and to God for giving me true Christian friends. 

I have had more of the dark world than I ever wanted. I still have a little ways farther to go. Please pray for me and this up coming year!! 

cookies

I want cookies!! during this summer my family has made many batches of cookies and they tasted amazing! I feel like eating cookies right now. I don't think we have the stuff though. :( Why???? I also want milk. We have that. :D:D 

cookies have the most wonderful smell! the mix of chocolate and cookie dough. :D although the cookie dough smell only fills the house when it is cooked. why would anyone not want to bake some of them so that you can't smell them. :D It is one of the best smells in the house. ;) 

If you want good home made chocolate cookies get the recipe from the Hershey's chocolate chips bags.  those cooked and dipped in milk are the best!! 

When I was younger my favorite was snicker doodle, but my dad started cooking oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. :D  Now I like them both but I like the chocolate chip cookies with out the oatmeal or with. We tend to just leave the oatmeal out so it takes less time. 

No bake cookies are very good too. I think I have changed my mind. No bake are the best. :D 

There is one kind of cookies I don't like...peanut butter cookies. I don't like those at all. they're just not good

M&M cookies are very good too. :D I think those are my new favorite. :D:D although I have only seen them factory made. 

Okay never mind back to normal chocolate chip cookies. :D 

my first

This is my first post. I am very excited and hope this will be a good change as change is part of life. This is new for me, but I have never liked new. While this is uncomfortable now, I am hoping I will grow to become more comfortable.

I don't have much to say today, but I will try to keep updating as my life changes. :D