Lift Your Eyes to Our Father Above!!!

In your times of trial lift your eyes to the Father above. He alone is the answer. The source of peace and love. 

I  have had lots of trouble recently. I wait and wait for them to settle down but they never do. God gives me these trials to help  me grow stronger. He wants me to trust him and become closer to him. He uses the hard things in my life to do this. I, as a sinner, try to do it my self and ask God to take it away. I want to think and believe that I will do better and be happier with out it. But God knows me better. He knows that I have a desire to move spiritually. He sees that I don't want to be bored. I have the trials, He puts me in, to change me into what he wants me to be.  

I am always in his hands or on the pottery wheel. He will always work on me to make me what he wants me to be. When I mess it up, unlike me as a potter, He doesn't lose control of his anger.

 With clay it doesn't work to lose is and get angry. Working slow and being patent is what must be done. If you work to fast it ends up lopsided and odd. It becomes to thick in one area and way to thin in another. Some times He has to add things or take things away.The things he has to add can be familiar or very foreign. Things that don't match up with the rest of it.  The way it comes out will be totally different from any thing else that is, has been, or ever will be. 

God is not like any potter. He is wise and patent. He will work on you as long as needed. This is a life long mission. One that He is willing to do. Soften your heart and become clay that is willing to let him work. One way or another is will happen. Some times he might just have to stop and tear it all apart and start over. It is only because he wants you to be the best piece you can be. 

I have struggled a lot this last year with the change in school. He has completely tore me apart and started over. Nothing is the same and never will be again. I have had to put a this much trust in Him. He has gotten me through days I thought were going to be impossible. Praying is the only way I got through others, just knowing He was there and asking for His peace. I have had to submit my life. One thing I had never understood was giving my life to God. I had been told sure. I thought I had. But when it came time to be tested I was not ready. I failed and found one reason why it was good for me to go to a real school. 

I was shown more of the world and what it is turning into. It is a different kind of understanding to see than it is to just hear. It is nicer to hear but easier to really truly understand if seen. 

I am very thankful for the friends God had provided. So many people encouraged me to keep going and trust God. They all knew that God knew what he was doing when He put me there. I thank both friends made before and during school. You all had a part in this last year of my life. In fact I think it has made more of an impact on me this last year than ever before. Thanks to you and to God for giving me true Christian friends. 

I have had more of the dark world than I ever wanted. I still have a little ways farther to go. Please pray for me and this up coming year!!